Hi

It'll all get better in time, I hope.

2012-02-08T02:11:00.001-08:00

So sad. Basically my life in pictures:

Life

2012-02-03T21:52:00.001-08:00

Life has been boring & suckish for me & I feel like I wanna die everyday. I miss being happy.

:(

2012-01-21T22:14:00.001-08:00

I miss you so much it's not even funny anymore.
"You know that feeling of being the least to someone,
yet they mean almost everything to you?
Yeah, that feeling"

Die with pride.

2012-01-20T03:01:00.001-08:00

This week was a week of pure emotional torture for me, always having to act as if everything is fine with everybody @ school, everybody @ home. I can never actually tell anymore how I feel, and I can never feel better. It pains me having to know that you can be gone in a minute, it pains me having to know I'm not all you think/ care about anymore. It pains me knowing that you're no longer there for me. You try, I know. You try to assure me time and time again, but I guess your faults were more than I could take, I couldn't fall in love with your faults. It's wonderful having you around, but I have to set my foot down & throw away what makes me sick, and make room for the happy. Maybe not now, but next time. When I'm strong enough. I'll be strong enough.

x

I will not hurt anymore

2012-01-13T16:37:00.001-08:00

Hi guyss, I'm awake at 8.30 on a Saturday idk what's wrong with me. So the first week of official school was eventful, too eventful for my own good. I've been caught up with lots of emotional bullshit & it's affecting my mood. So that sucks.
It's just a feeling that kills you inside when you find out that everything that happened/ that was said for a whole month was built on nothing & was all bullshit, the feeling where your heart sinks into this bottomless pit so deep that you know you'll never get it back. Sometimes I wonder do you like to see me hurt so much? It's depressing too that the first ever conversation has to be of such.
What is love good for anyway?? Absolutely nothing. Probably like you said, it was wrong for you to agree with me & you regretted it, ok fine with me. Probably it is wrong that we started it too. I'm gonna try not to care & be totally cool about everything now. I need to focus on my fucking studies, the fact that O's is like next year scares me considering the fact that time passes SUPER FAST. ~~7A1s lai~~~

Cheer up jean, it's about time you get over it. xoxoxoxoxo

Jubilee hinds

2012-01-11T01:14:00.001-08:00

Hello I am sexi and I know it. Recently ive been thinking about how sexy jubilee hinds is. Like omg, jaw dropping much. I will end this post with two words: jubilee r sexi Xx

Camp's overrr!

2012-01-06T17:59:00.001-08:00

Hi guys! Omg I love the blogger app I swear, it makes it do convenient to blog:) HAHA so yay camp's officially over n my class is....not too bad?? As in the people are normal n stuff just that they're not the kind of company I'll mix with.... So I think it's a sign for me to study hard n getting a place in nus;) haha so on the 2nd day we had some social etiquette course in the morning n it was ok, but it's like damn judgmental omg... Haha. Then we went to the arts museum in the afternoon n it was quite fun, Bronte n I were laughing at LEAVES.... Hahahha damn funny. On the 3rd day we had some dance thing then went to class after that to finish our collage, hahaha with mr goh n he's damn innocent HAHAHA so we had fun disturbing him.

Camp

2012-01-04T04:56:00.001-08:00

Hi!!!:) had camp today n overall it was quite ok! The trip to tuas incineration plant n Palau semakau was quite interesting n our tour guide was funny :) and we went everywhere with bronte n cass' class so its quite fun! but miss teh had like a freaking bitch fit when we were going home all... Haha omg camp tmr again :(

HAPPY NEW YEAR BITCHEZ!

2011-12-31T09:46:00.001-08:00

Hi guys!!:) So this post is like a compilation of everything that happened this year! Hahaha like all the photos and shit, in which majority I look horrendous in, but whatever! Hahaha it's like the end of yet another year n I've no plans on how I wanna celebrate it because I've babysitting to do. But come to think of it, I do not really wanna do the 'kiss on christmas', 'kiss on new years eve' thing yet, cause like fuck that I'm only 14! I've so many more years:) I guess I'm gonna post this post at 12midnight on 1/1/12, and it's only 11.40am now, so I'm gonna put lots of effort in this!:)

So I'm using the iPad (blogger app) to blog now n I can't like arrange the photos or whatever which sucks:( but whatever hahaha there's photos from like everywhere.
-the beach (tanning with dulce, van, Janice n Evelyn) HAHA with only dulce n I going into the waters but the others joining us anyway, seeing the fact that we're enjoying ourselves:)
-Dinner with Heidi n Janice where I kept teasing Heidi :p
-going to janice's house for fun almost everyday after going to ikea!
-the period where I kept insisting i've an Adams apple
-the period where I loved Harry potter
-MARILYN MONROE PHOTOSHOOT HAHAHAHAHAHA
-reunion with my starshines:)
-exam period with all the study dates everywhere (airport, school)
-the period where Evelyn is damn into taking pictures in class
-photobooth @ van's place:) (I remember that's from the day dulce n I went to school wanting to scold TAN YILIN HAHAHAHAHAHA)
-when nix n I lied to everybody we were dating cause somebody suspected HAHAHA

Omg so many memories from 2011, come to think of it, although this year there's like so much bullshit, i've also learnt a lot from everything. Haha I fucked up pretty much in school this year, with all the shit I got myself into haha but I've no regrets man really :p I learnt n realized so many things this year n made friends with people I'll never forget :) it's a wonderful year with lots of bullshit and happy things too! So it's not all that bad tbh.

2012 is a new year n I'm not gonna be a cliché fucker n say it's a new start cause it's not, you can have a new start whenever the fuck you want! Hahaha but i hope it'll a good year like how it is in 2011, honestly I don't mind another year with drama n stuff cause I love those shit man :p but I just want things to go my way n let me do well in my studies? Hahaha oh n when I was scrolling thru my fb looking for pictures I saw MY FACE OMG IT CHANGED SO MUCH! I would like to believe I look better now, haha but idk. I think I look like a rat last time:( HAHAHA

New year resolutions:
-lead a healthier lifestyle
-have the motivation to study all thru during school term
-be nicer to people
-make a change in something
-be stronger:):)
-keep to my new year resolutions!!!!!

I really appreciate everything that I was blessed with this year n all the friends that stood by me thru everything:) and my girlfriend who can be very punchable sometimes.....:p Ok so school's gonna start in like 3 days? I'm ready but lazy... HAHAHA hope school term would not be such a turd.

Time check: 1.45am, FAILED TO UPLOAD AT MIDNIGHT CAUSE I WASN'T HOME. HAPPY NEW YEAR BITCHEZ!

New year eve's random shit

2011-12-30T21:02:00.001-08:00

Fighting for peace is like fucking for virginity

2011-12-26T21:25:00.001-08:00

Hello everybodyyyy! Merry Christmas!:) how was everybody's Christmas celebration? I had fun @ scape with Evelyn, gena, gena's cousin n some random people they met, n I followed Evelyn to get her remaining Christmas presents for cherlyn n I:) she got me under the mistletoe n bronte got me fastlife:) hehe happy girl. At about 7.30 we walked to oc to have dinner & omg the a&f guys are so handsome, too handsome in fact. And the smell of the shop is like ~heaven~

So anyway I got quite a lot of presents for Christmas hehe n I'm so thankful for them:)
So yesterday I was looking thru instagram/ YouTube n I saw so many heartwarming videos of kids 'receiving' their dad's for Christmas because they were at war. And it really touches me n makes me so happy for them!! And it reminded me of how much I should be thankful that my dad is here with me n stuff. Although he can be a pain in the ass sometimes. There were like instagram photos of Santa with a kid on his lap, while the kid's dad was waiting behind the pillar before giving the kid a surprise:') it's really so touching haha I think I should stop.

It really fucking gets to me why people even bomb for peace and fight for peace and all that shit. Adults can be so fucking immature sometimes, taking kid's dads, women's husband just for their own good? To get what they want? Fighting for what they want in fact. It's fucking irritating n immature. I don't even know what adults these days are thinking. It just makes me so freaking fed up.

So thankful that Singapore doesn't have war and all that shit, though how much I hate staying in Singapore, it's still kinda peaceful n stuff like that. We should all be thankful that we don't have our dad's taken away from us and all.
And so I actually have a new found respect for Justin bieber, after getting under the mistletoe.. Hahaha cliché right, but it's not because he's good looking n all that but because of everything he does, and try to do. It's really quite inspiring! Hahaha

What a long post this is hahhaa whatever a week to school :( sigh.
Merry Christmas!^^

x

Stoked for Christmas!!!!

2011-12-22T08:19:00.001-08:00

Hey guys :) so I went to town to shop with Tasha today for Christmas gifts. Hehe so happy I managed to get presents for everybody, and I managed to make all the cards! Hehe I'm so stoked for christmas I swear. Anyway this is just a short update cause I'm bored. Haha.

Saw this on tumblr n I think it rocks:
'What the fuck is wrong with some people seriously, especially psychotic ex’s. If you’ve just broken up with your boyfriend/girlfriend don’t be a pestering little fuck. No one likes someone who’s going to call you constantly and stalk your every fucking move. How about you move on with your fucking life and get over the relationship instead of continuing to involve yourself in the other persons life when they clearly don’t want you there. Fuck my life people are so stupid.'

Hahaha happy Christmas everybody!:)
Sayin happy instead of merry cuz I'm so English. HAHA kidding.
Bye
x

Evelyn's bbq

2011-12-17T07:24:00.003-08:00

Hi guys (dont even know who reads this space anymore, maybe jacob?) so hi jabs. hahahah ok it's been soooo long since i blogged cause im so freaking lazy :p :p but since im bored now i should just do a post. ok so hiiii!

what happened this wk:

-Abercrombie & fitch models appreciation HAHA

-slept over at evelyn's house

-evelyn's bbq

yep i think thats all! hahaha the a&f models are so freaking handsome i dont even know where to start... and me being me, i dont really dig guys who are like muscular and all that shit, cause it's not my thinggg hahah but the models.... FREAKING EXCEPTION. they're so hot n handsome i dunno where to start, but i think they probably went back alr:(

evelyn's bbq was a blast! it was very fun, sorta like a mini reunion thinggg?? took lots of pictures & polaroids n all that n i had fun disturbing bronte! hehe. and me sleeping over at evelyn's house was fun, but it was a nightmare to wake up to someone poking you... HAHAHHA

so my week has been kinda eventful & fun & im wondering what to do next wk... hopefully my gf makes time for me or summin' if not i might just rot n die.. hahahah

yay 2nd week. love u bby heheheh

that me

i look like a freaking druggie but look who's there >>>>> SEXGODDD hahahahha he kinda looks like aaron johnson doesn't he?

bye goiiis

La Dispute - Such Small Hands

2011-11-28T18:10:00.000-08:00

this song makes me depressed

hi guys, i haven't blogged for a pretty long time. hahahha wtv, holidays has been normal. i'm at my grandmother's house now and i'm going home later at night. there's nothing to do here besides talking to my grandma, using the computer and kicking my sister HAHAHHAHA

so tasha is coming to my house tmr, so excited hehe

omg i can't take it when people want something so bad or when they cannot get over something yet they do not want to fucking fight for it. please, you're not some small child anymore you gotta fight for what you want. stop sitting around posting tweets/ fb stats complaining how miserable you're. get the fuck out and do something about it. what's yours would be yours.

i don't want school term to start

2011-11-11T21:24:00.000-08:00

But I know/I just gotta let it go/I, should've known I gotta learn to say goodbye now I throw my armour down/And leave the battleground For the final time now/I, I know. I'm running from a warzone (warzone- the wanted)

hellooo ^^ so yesterday i went for breakfast with cherlyn and bronte and after that we went to evelyn's house. then i met dulce and we went to taka and kinokunya haha, i saw this peter pan book and this novel that is like so interesting and i wish i can buy it soon:(

2011-11-05T20:52:00.001-07:00

I want to run away with you. I say that so much but honestly it's very true. Get a full tank of gas, and just drive anywhere. Then after the gas runs out we can buy a train ticket without knowing the destination. I'd go anywhere in the world as long as you're by my side. You're all I ever need.

Foster The People

2011-11-02T21:54:00.000-07:00

is it me or mark foster freaking sexy? HAHAHHA whistling solo for the win.

i love foster the people so much

special

2011-10-29T02:03:00.000-07:00

for you

last day

2011-10-29T00:21:00.001-07:00

aww gonna miss 1/2 faith so much

apparently i cannot take pure geog anymore cuz my overall was pulled down so i have to take f&n omg but i'm gonna appeal and i hope it works :(

yay semester break hehe

rant

2011-10-26T07:05:00.000-07:00

hi this is gonna be a fucking rant like really hardcore so yeah if you dont like rants, dont read. simple.

so yeah, my life has been ok really, but yknow, yknow it yourself when something is missing in your life. im sick of wasting my time on something that is gonna be nothing in the end. yknow.

i cant take it when people break their promises, yeah i know, it's something small but wth. really?

seriously, i cannot fucking take it ok. i hate everything now like seriously. its always good good good then baaaammm something bad has to happen, and we're back at square 1. seriously... seriously

fuck it, so from today onwards i'm not gonna give 2 fucks about you and the things you're gonna do. not gonna look @ your twitter page, fb, whatever. enough of bullshit & drama

xoxo

personally

2011-10-21T08:03:00.000-07:00

harlow~~ ok so i am like sad now. like sad sad and i'm ignoring everybody's text cause i'm not in the mood to do anything. so today school was ok, and we had freaking inter class after school & freaking 2E can't chill.. like for real. wth HAHAHHAHA

i can't believe i'm going cruise in like a day? i'm gonna miss neo hui lin so much man... HAHAHA and i'm starting to be a peace lover i don't know why, but oh wellll, this wanting to be a peace lover attitude of mine would probably only last a day.

i'm so bored now i feel like sleeping... wahhh look! it's 11.11 now. PIAN REN HUAN THAT ONE

i cannot wait for my hair to grow & i'm like thinking about what subject combination to take :/ sighhh~

OH AND I FINALLY DID MY BROWS AGAIN:) i like it again hehe

okay byeee

BOC BOC BOC

2011-10-15T22:51:00.000-07:00

hi everybody soo.. i'm gonna post a decent post today cause i'm bored at home with nothing to do... hihihi!! so exams ended on thursday @ 10 and cherlyn came to my house & we got ready & we met the rest of boc at buangkok > bugis > town! hehe had fun shopping! and on friday we went to the zoo and had fun and sat on elephants, and we actually only paid $4 cause we told the aunty we were 12 HAHAHAH & at about 5 cassandra had to go so we took a bus back to amk and we laughed like mad idiots cause of RIP SIVA all HAHA ok there's some stupid workshop in school tomorrow that idw to go >:( hahah ok bye

from town:

and the zoo:

HAHAHA BRONTE LOOKS SO CUTE HERE RIGHT :D

tumblr siol~ HAHA kidding

k bye xoxo

2011-10-15T08:33:00.000-07:00

haloowww hui lin

t'aime encore mais vous pouvez être un tel trou du cul, parfois

2011-10-15T08:28:00.000-07:00

things i do for neo hui lin:

-stay up

-reply fast

-control my temper though i always fail cause she has such an ability that no other person have and that is to make me angry easily

-using my brains at 11.30

-post

-and so much more

-and more

-more

i cannot remember anymore but im sure there's more cause i just refuse to use more of my brains now i'm tired but i'm not gonna sleep cause i'm gonna stay up.. things i do for neo hui lin. hahahha

xoxo

2011-10-15T06:57:00.000-07:00

i love neo hui lin cause she's the sexiest mother fucker on earth.

kidding.

actually i dont love her cause she gets on my nerves every time and she annoys the shit out of me but she can be quite nice if she's in the mood and i'm happy cause she let me try her disgusting bubble tea which is nice but she thinks it sucks which meant that i was actually indirectly kissing her hahah i'm joking.

neo hui lin does nothing for the whole day except thinking for ways to annoy jean mahone cause she thinks that makes her cool but NO actually it makes jean mahone love austin more than her.

...ok hi hui lin

2011-10-15T06:47:00.003-07:00

how ya doing hui lin

2011-10-15T06:47:00.001-07:00

wassup hui lin

2011-10-15T06:46:00.000-07:00

hallow hui lin

2011-10-15T06:38:00.001-07:00

hi hui lin

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERLYN LELIA

2011-10-08T19:32:00.001-07:00

hellowww ;) so we had cherlyn's (surprise) birthday celebration yesterday and it was awesome pawsome ^^ hahaah it was kinda a success? cause she cried!! :( HAHA ok so first we met at amk at 5 plus and we went to get her presentsss! evelyn and i bought for her this super cute pink panther thing from mini toons and it's like a baby pink panther? its just super cute! hahah and cherlyn said that'll be the only pink thing that she'll like.. aww haha. after we get our presents we went to new york to sit down and we waiting for like 30 mins for cherlyn with 3 false alarms HAHA and finally she came.. she was like so freaking shocked to see us and she cried... :( nobody wished her happy birthday yknow for the whole day, (with exceptions of me) haha cause we wanted to make her think that we forgot.. and her mum told us that she was holding her phone in her hand the whole day waiting for our texts... HAHA SO CUTEEE :')

after dinner all we took neoprints and the guy at new york gave us gigantic candy floss hehe.

i will be over this soon

2011-10-06T03:37:00.001-07:00

gave you chances- you threw them all away

trusted you- broke my trust

tried my best- you did not appreciate it

loved you- you broke my heart

lmfao wait sorry i have no heart

haha fuck you watch me get over and done with this shit

spare me

2011-10-02T04:57:00.000-07:00

hehe qt pie :')

hi so it's like exam period now and i'm so scared :( i really wanna do well and get into a good class and then get into a good jc then nus then go to texas meet austin then go to monte carlo.. :( HAHA

okay anyway, i hope i feel better soon

AND YOU: continue to be that way

thoughts at 10.44 at night

2011-09-28T07:43:00.000-07:00

reasons why you're an asshole:

-you flirt

-you do things on purpose to make me sad

-you like seeing me sad

-you like to make me angry

-you never ever say hi

-you never smile

-you avoid

-you are unfaithful

-you cannot commit to one

-you take me as your second choice which sucks

-you take 15 years to reply one text

-you lie

-you block me off your fb wall

-you hide things from me

-you say hurtful things

-you dont think

and reasons why you're so lovely:

-you try to cheer me up when i'm sad

-you make lame jokes

-you say stupid things which are kinda funny

-you talk about sex

-you are so gay

-you make the effort to do some things although very minimal

-you comment on weird things

-you observe weird things

-you say weird things

-you give stupid opinions on supposedly interesting things

-you like porn

-you like perverts

-you've an obsession with people that dont know you

-being you

wows im so emotional today HAHA ok bye

fun day at bishan and amk

2011-09-24T08:06:00.000-07:00

hello this is gonna be a 'normal' post after sooo long! hahaha so today... supposed to go with dion to bishan to do her cip but we cannot because the library said we had to register and shit... SO IRRITATING. anyway met chlos bronte and evelyn at compass > bishan > met dion > went to the library for nothing... -_- haha so we went had lunch at long johns and laughed at all the weird ah lians on facebook. went to the playground after that to lepak and cam wow-ed and laughed sooo much. at about 5.30 we left j8 as bronte had to go home so chlos evelyn dion and i went to amk and had dinzzz at popeyes! after that we went to the cinema level and played like mad kids hehe and then we went to lepak at some staircase where we met bronte coincidentally HAHA :) evelyn and chlos went to get some bubble tea while i tried to flirt with dion & at about 9 we left amk and went homeee! :>

just cause im bored and lazy to go to school

2011-09-22T17:20:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THOMAS ANDREW FELTON! <3 <3 <3

my favourite Slytherin and the best Draco Malfoy!!!! ILYYYY <3333

(although it was yesterday)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! <3333

2011-09-22T04:48:00.000-07:00

stop coming to me only when you need someone...

HAHHA and if she makes u more secure? WHY DONT U GO TO HER

my blog is getting so boring

2011-09-21T04:02:00.001-07:00

I have been feeling pretty emotional for the past couple of weeks. It kinda really sucks. Everything will be going awesomely, and nothing bothers you. Then Bang! Something bad happens. Then another bad thing happens. Then another and another, and another, and another, and another, and another. Until you are all emotional, hating on life, and simply don’t know what to do. Yeh, it kinda really sucks.

empty words

2011-09-12T02:09:00.002-07:00

so i was thinking.......

do you actually mean what you say? or rather do you even remember what you said? probably your words are as empty as i am. i've this urge to post everything i feel but idk how to even start probably because i am feeling so many things i want i dont know which is what i am exactly feeling.

so i have been noticing......

how much you changed since last time to a certain extend i seem like i dont matter anymore? maybe because you've found someone better. actually i dont really care. maybe i dont. probably. change is inevitable and i should respect you for your change. but really, i expected more.

so i have been forgetting.....

everything. pretending that nothing ever happened, but when things get better and i thought- maybe i can give this another shot but no, the past is too much

thoughts at 10.28 in the morning

2011-09-08T19:28:00.000-07:00

What am I doing awake

my worst

2011-09-08T08:16:00.000-07:00

hi i have been studying in school today with cherlyn, chloe and evelyn from 12-4 & i finally understand the toa cah soh nonsense YAY & i did my eyebrows today. for the first time. it is so thin now i'm not used to it :( k then dulce met us at abt 5 plus and that was when cherlyn & chloe went home. soooo dulce, evelyn & i went to hougang mall and got sweet talk and laughed at pigfaces. hahahha & i got home about 7.

:( :( :( :(

i'm on the verge of giving all this up i swear

fun day

2011-09-06T06:55:00.000-07:00

hi everybody! so this was monday. went to aishah's house & baked hehe had lotssaaa fun! met dulce & evelyn at sk > causeway point. after that we went to aishah's house and she went to show dulce her p6 biography book & so there was my biography... SO EMBARRASSING hahahaha i was such a freak i swear HAHAHAHAH!!!!! k then after that we baked & played with photobooth then we went downstairs to play somemore haha left at about 7 & dulce and i went to gardens to lepak at the playground, while walking to the playground dulce was being irritating and taking her own sweet time walking so i went ahead and walked first. but this bitch called me and told me there was something in front of me & I SCREAMED LIKE A MAD IDIOT and ran back to her HAHAHAH

So today, went to the zoo with janice, van the smurf, evelyn & dulce! ^^ had a lot of fun too cause the monkeys were so cute hehe and the other animals! janice left the house without sending me the pictures so i cant post it up but oh wellll

THIS POST IS SO LONG IM BORE-ING MYSELF. Haha ok gonna tumblr bye

we can try

2011-09-03T18:00:00.000-07:00

hi i just came back from breakfast with cherlyn & peishyuen. i'm awake at 9 on a sunday, hahha ahh. today's gonna be boring man. yesterday was studying with dulce, van, janice and sheralyn at gardens :) one big family HAHAHAHA

i know things aren't quite like what they used to be. people come and go, thats something i have to fucking learn.

i dont even know what is wrong with me, something must have cocked up in my head or something. to think i can forgive someone so many times over the same thing, omg what is wrong with me?!?!? i guess i finally see the light now. this is gon' be hard man i swear. wahhhh

this too shall pass

change

2011-09-02T06:58:00.000-07:00

hi everybody:) so... yesterday was teachers day? hahah the performances were quite disappointing but it was fun with the company & stuff & miss verin was so cute as the small little pirate hehe! after the celebration went for lunch with jacob, bronte, evelyn, peishyuen & cherlyn :) had pizza hut > met cassandra then went to peishyuen's place. skated & shit & cherlyn's mum sent evelyn and i to hougang at about 7!

went to aishah's place today! hehe had so much fun. met evelyn first then went to woodlands to meet aishah, cherlyn & peishyuen ^^ had lunch > aishah's place. watched a malay horror movie and bronte came after that! > skatepark. (that was when all of us mistook a girl for a guy)

after that we went to the void deck where i fell while skating & peishyuen's board flew t the joss sticks which left marks on her deck & she was scared so we went t "apologise" hahah :)

time flew sooo fast tdy! left at bout 7 and went home!

i thought today would suck cuz of hhaha so many things but it turned out so much better ;) i love my friends forever muax muax

i miss u i miss us

lonely

2011-08-29T20:21:00.000-07:00

"You know, as sad as it may sound, I think the likes of some could enjoy their days on their own. Maybe I could with a completely refined mindset. I could treat myself to a coffee every morning around eleven. I could walk just around the bend and lose myself in a few romance novels without the pit of jealousy or envy once tinging through my body. I could come home and cook myself an exquisite dinner. I could wear a deep red polka dotted apron, and have some sort of treat warming in the oven to scent my apartment as I ate bite by bite mindfully, slowly. I could drape an orange sheet over the lone window at the end of the long, narrow room to make even the closets glow a dull citrus-y light. I could find some sort of elegance in plum wine and a dog to tell cruel facts of reality to. And I could curl up each night in some thick, over priced lingerie and goosefeather blankets and fall asleep without a thought of where else I could be, or any other form of life other than impurities and sweet solitude.

Somehow that should be attainable. Somehow I’d like that to be. "

eventful

2011-08-29T07:56:00.000-07:00

hi guys. so today i met bronte at hougang festival market at 11.45 & had lunch tgt with evelyn while waiting for the others to come. soon frankie, eva and dion arrived and they packed macs & off we went t borrow cds! then we went t get popcorns > bronte's house. watched haunted changi & 5ive girls. after that we played with play doh & balloons. SO MUCH FUN I SWEAR!!

at about 7 frankie, eva, dion and i left then we went t macs t look for my wallet & THANK GOD it was there so i didn't really lose it though i thought i did :) heh

my phone apparently crashed & im not requesting fr a new phone from my dad because for a sole reason because i see a need to shut myself from the world for a little while. hahha im going crazy. but if i dont talk t anyone, i will not be able t talk t my cutie pie :( then how??? hahahh

lol & i swear ijever is so cute, been watching his livestream since 9.15 and he is so funny i dont even... haha ohh well. now he's saying that he will have sex & make anyone his closest mate as long as u send a macbook pro t his mail. i rly wna do that, but unfortunately i cant because i dont have the money:( hahhaha he is soooo funny!!

WHY IS THIS BLOG POST SO LONG

alrighhttt okay im going off this space now i hope i will survive tonight.

kk bye

a good day

2011-08-27T07:27:00.000-07:00

hello everybody who still bothers t read this. yeap another post, no photos, nothing, just for memories sake. i dont wna lose my memories man, i guess this blog will be for me t look at 10, 20 years down the road and think t myself, ahh this was how i spent my day, ahh this when i was sad/happy/ angry, ahh this was when i liked austin etc etc. all for memories.

so today, is one of my happy days :) had pei shyuen's surprise party today at vidhya's house & it was awesome pawzomexx. we swam, skated, played, harry potter movie marathon-ed. so freaking awesome!!!!

after that had dinner at nex with peishyuen, jacob, cherlyn my twin and chloe at texas chicken ^^ so full after that & we went to the rooftop to take polaroids. hehehe <3

i love today sooo much, i hope i can always be this happy. every single day

school/ updates xx

2011-08-23T05:30:00.000-07:00

hi guys been kinda long since i blogged a proper post. haha my life is soo boring man!!

TO DO:

-be happier

-study harder than i already am

-save up

-lose some weight

-kill myself

HAHAHAHAHA ok the killing myself part is not a to do. its just there for fun hahahha ok not funny. ahh, sch had been so tedious and life had been so fast- paced. :/

stay strong jean get a grip of yourself.

my feelings are eating me again

2011-08-15T02:36:00.000-07:00

Is it me or did you give up on us?

hopeless romantic

2011-08-08T02:16:00.000-07:00

i know what will become of me if i continue doing what i am doing.

but im not doing anything abt it.

why?

How long can a person stay strong till?

2011-07-22T04:35:00.000-07:00

I AM MADE OF STEEL MADE OF STEEL MADE OF STEEL

hello!!! ytd was racial harmony day and i didn't dress up cuz idk what t dress up as :( hahha but it was fun and cute t see everybody dressed up and peishyuen is damn prettyyyyyy!:)

hmmm tdy was damn fucked up. but i guess it's okay now, i cannot rly be bothered. saw cass, griya and rachel coincidentally at compass and had a short catch up!:) tdy was kinda ok and i cant wait fr next sat!!!! :))))

FUCK UUUUUU

YOU R THE BEST THING THATS EVER BEEN MINEEEEE~

2011-07-19T03:35:00.000-07:00

it scares me how much i rly rly love you sometimes, it scares me quite a lot. what if one day you left? what if one day you get bored? what if one day you get tired? what if one day you let go? what if one day you give up? what if you one day you stop loving? then. i will be left alone, all alone. though i dont say it, doesn't mean i dont feel it. just because i dont tell you how much you mean t me, doesn't mean i don't know. i know, i think about it all the fucking time. although i can curse and swear abt how annoying you can be when you act like i dont exist, how you act like i dont matter, deep down in the bottom of my heart, i love you wholeheartedly.

what if one day you decide to leave fr someone better?

i feel inferior, fucking inferior. no matter how much one can tell you how much better you're better than this other person, it's hard fr you t feel the same. i guess that's what feelings does t you. im rly trying my best, don't give up on me; yet?

"love me forever?"

"forever, and always"

HP7 DH2

2011-07-19T02:25:00.000-07:00

YESTERDAY, I GOT TO KISS RUPERT GRINT. HAHAHA is anybody jealous???? ^^ CAUGHT HP7 DH2 YTD AT CATHAY WITH EVA FRANKIE VIDHYA EVELYN DULCE AND BRONTE. HAD SO MUCH FUN AND I AM DEFINETLY GONNA REWATCH IT. JUST THINKING ABOUT IT MAKES ME EXCITED AND I CANNOT CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT AND I KNOW I WILL DEFINITELY MISS HP :'((( WHY MUST IT END, WHY MUST IT? Anyway school was a bore tdy as per normallll :'((( i wish everyday's dismissal is like at 10.50 hahhaha, life would be good. Hehe

And i have a question! WHAT IS LOVEEE~

2011-07-16T21:42:00.000-07:00

WHATTT IS LOVEEEEEEE WHAT IS LOVEEEEEE

so i tried t sleep but apparently i cannot fr god knows what reason...i think its cuz i've been thinking too much. these few days, i've been deep in thought, thinking and thinking... HAHHAHAH JUST KIDDING. i dont ever think thats why im always making mistakes at everything.

Carnival was a BLASTTTT

2011-07-16T20:04:00.001-07:00

hi:) Weee carnival ytd was fun!!!! <3 our haunted house was...good? hahhaha i just feel rly contented w it though i know it's not the best! so.. met chloe at rm t get some paos fr breakf then went t sch at abt 7.50? did up the last bit of the room and we went t do our make up! hahaha super fun :)))) at abt 9 the crowd starting coming in? heheheh soooo fun scaring everybody!!! and im so happy cuz i got closer t some of my classmates!:) after the carnival went home t change and stuff befr meeting my homiezzzz! then we went t esplanade fr some magic show and supper aft! reached home at abt 12.30?? TIRED BUT FUCKING FUN DAY!!!! <333

AHAHA the scary mask

Hell house hhahahaha

2011-07-15T03:41:00.001-07:00

hehehe hi:) wheee decorated the haunted house tdy and carnival's tmrw!! :3 omg i cnt wait!! hahahah it got interesting aft awhile and i hope it will be a success tomorrow... so stayed back till like 6.30 tdy? decorated the ava room and stuff and at abt 5.40 dulce and i ran t rm t buy garbage bags cuz we ran out... DAMN TIRING WE RLY RAN. i was so scared i will slip and fall and die hahahaha. hope tmr willl be a blast! :))))

somebody pls remind me that patience is a fucking virtue and i should learn t be patient. god bless me hope i wont burst at u soon. amen

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BLOGGING CUZ I'VE GOT NOTHING BETTER TO DO

2011-07-14T06:17:00.000-07:00

hellooooo there fine thinggg ^^

hahahhah hi everybody im blogging cuz i've nth t do. so my day was kinda fine? i think. it was sooo boring in school, thank goodness caleb didn't come cuz if he did i would have died cuz i was too tired:'( after school went t rm fr lunch and shit then went back t school t watch the class debate. after that i went home and had dinner at east coast w my family!:)

i rly dont know what t/ not t expect from you, yknow, rly. i am trying my best t figure u out but seem like i cannot no matter how hard i try. you're such a complicated person. sometimes u just make me feel like im everything u want and need while on other times u make me feel like i can be easily replaced.

keep me close or watch me go

trust issues?

2011-07-13T02:30:00.000-07:00

hello everybardiiiiiiii/ myself.

hahahhaha im so bored so i thought i should post sth here at this dying space? k anyway stayed back fr inter class debate tdy and 2f lost but its ok i think considering the fact that we prepared on the spot? hahah 2d did pretty well :)

omggg haha i cnt believe that u did that t my friend and i actually considered u as a friend for a period of time, i actually tried t treat u nicely.... hahaha and i read jesslyn's blog over lunch tdy!! wah omg rly can laugh.... kk i shut up.

my days have been rly mundane... but i think everything is better cuz of ur exsistance? i think so...:') im getting v stressed cuz of streaming and examinations and shit... im gonna die cuz of exhaustion soon. somebody keep me moving plsss:)

YAY REUNION

2011-06-24T04:51:00.001-07:00

hello everybody! i haven't been updating this space very often and i thought i should do a proper post today! welll, on wed > thurs dulce and I couldn't sleep so we were otp and watching movies online for the whole night! hahaha and we met at compass for breakfast at 7 and went t evelyn's house t swim and hang out till like 6 with bronte :) aft that i went t nex t meet heather, dione and clarissa!

went t texas chicken for dinner + brief catch up! haha the spicy chicken thingy i ate was super spicy i swear! haha aft dinner we went t gardens t rent some movies and we got 2 chick flicks and a horror movie which isn't even scary... after that we went t heather's and had our always wanted sleepover, like finally! had so much fun and i'm really happy that none of us changed since like p5? and it's like really awesome that we're still so close after like 4 years and the fact that we're not in the same school anymore did not drift our friendship and we're still using the term 'starshines' tho it's sth we created in p5, so thankful for you guys :') <3

Baking!

Starshines cupcakesss kekeke ^^

Yummmmsssss

Swim!

Photobooth!

van's

2011-05-28T08:14:00.000-07:00

hi! so i see ptm sucks for almost everybody??? cheerup!! ;) hahahha, went to van's house yesterday with dulce and messed around with photoboothhh hehe

Janice came after that at about 6 and we went for dinner after!!! ;) home-d after that, and i went to church today after 1943290148 yearsss

Self-entertainment

this is me being a sun

PIG.

2011-03-25T03:37:00.000-07:00

Hi peeps, Janice here. Helping Jean blog because she's too lazy to blog. Such a pig right? Can play Audition cannot blog. TSKTSK. LAZY SHIT. Anyways, we're heading to Punggol Park to go ghost-hunting later on. And i need to dig out my fucking torchlight.):

Okay, Far East with Jean tomorrow.^^ YAY.

Jean : I'm such a horny lil, sexy bitch. :)

2011-03-20T06:10:00.000-07:00

school tmr! i am no longer alive whahahkekeke night night

2011-03-08T04:55:00.002-08:00

perhaps we should all throw away our lives for one happy day. everyone is crying. i am suspecting that probably i am too young 4 love actually. i am trying too hard for something that the other party might not even bother. i'm growing so immune to this kinda things that i don't even bother anymore. good or bad?

oh well. i really need more rest soon b4 i collapse. off to bed soon :P

night everybody.